INTRO
Before i say anything
Before i even wright anything
I got to say a few things first
This is gonna be the realest song
I’ve wrote so far
But this needs to be said
To the people this song will mention
I don’t blame you for nothin
I just gotta get my thoughts out
I’m not sure what i’m gonna say
I had to make the beat myself
I don’t trust no one else to capture the mood right

VERSE 1
Fuck it thats all i can even wright
Dori is leavin, leavin tonight
Dad and her are gonna have to separate
Can’t meditate, the old times i resonate
When the levee breaks its hard to prepare
Sittin in my chair all i can do is stare
Speechless as Dad said they ain’t together
Shocked and terrified ain’t been well, er
Fuck it, honestly i really had thought i misheard
Couldn’t be what was said or a bad way to pick words
Looked at the oven saw her picture was missin
Lots of stuff no longer in the kitchen
We moved as a family to this house and settled
Now somebody gonna move out forever
Haven't yet but i’m bound to shed tears
Can’t even rehearse this verse out of breath here

HOOK
Step-mom gone
Stressed and sad
I refuse to lose this
Gonna keep contact
Unexpected to me
I don’t even know the emotion i have
I don’t know how to deal
It's hard to be coping with that

VERSE 2
Dori guided us to become intelligent nice dudes
Through the end of elementary, middle and high school
Was there to help with whatever we needed
This ain’t a bereathment we still finna see her
Call her, talk to her text
I’m a nerdy kid but boss be the next
Path i take, Sam and Nate, at that pace
No average day i have to laugh away
Thinking back on every conversation
Ice cream, and spots you take us
School of Rock after the show
Thanks so much for the laughs and the woes
I’m writing this the same day i’ve learned it
Just trying to process my thoughts they burnin
Burnin, burnin, burnin in my head man
No distraction just rappin can help that

HOOK
Step-mom gone
Stressed and sad
I refuse to lose this
Gonna keep contact
Unexpected to me
I don’t even know the emotion i have
I don’t know how to deal
It's hard to be coping with that

VERSE 3
A couple days in still in a daze its
Amazin how reality makin changes
Someone live with you now they gone
Currently the house it feels wrong
The tears are coming literally right now
They actually streaming as i write down
You encouraged me to read more be more steeper in thinkin
Critical with it whole not minimal with this
I thought it was good i thought things were wonderful
Was it naïvety or was truth just hidden deep under stone
When a person in your life for that fucking long
Then one day they just magically gone
Rappin this song musics my therapy
Wish i did a better job in the moment charrishing
Like they said in The Office you never known when the good ol days are
Think it's a long time when you when ‘em but they passin faster than race cars
Been holding off on this last 16
Cause was it done it’ll be like its happening
It’ll feel realer i’m done with the process
Reality sucking fuck stoicism on this
When you see someone everyday now they've left, away
Promise your head’ll ache stomach, deaded weight
You enjoy conversations, movies shit
Now you can’t do its feels like you like sick
I don’t even know if i can record this
Do emotional but i’ma force it
More sick every thought i’m havin on it
Write more songs to take my mind off this
I’ve written about 20 songs and record even more
But nothings fucking changed than how it be before
I learned so much and because so you i changed so much
It hurts so much but i only have to say thanks so much

HOOK
Step-mom gone
Stressed and sad
I refuse to lose this
Gonna keep contact
Unexpected to me
I don’t even know the emotion i have
I don’t know how to deal
It's hard to be coping with that